Its just another Bananaworld

whoa... Finally! i have completed my 1st paper of my last semester examinations!

Boy... It kinds of freaking me out. But i'm really excited! *excited* My last days in school are really showing up! haha... *excited*

Arranged most of the photos in club today. Whoa! photos that are ancient that were taken in 1998/1999 were in club!! interesting.... I guess most of the people in club ain't very conscience about their environment's cleanliness... Club is so messy... but not many people clean up the place... haiz... *yucks~* Thankfully, there are some people like Zeon and Kaiwei(occassionally) that sweep up the floor and do some shifting of the furnitures when they are free...

I just saw a documentry that talked about the topic of "Pleasure". Why do we have pleasure? Apparently its a mechanism that causes our body to response to an activity or event that is good. Then our body will react to it by releasing a form of chemicals that allow our brain to be stimulated. Through the stimulation, the brain then reacts positive when the activity or event is about to occur. Wanting the brain to have the same pleasure again. And this is actually a way of survival that has been evolved from our Human evolution. Imagine being in a cool place. When i'm in a hot place, i enjoy it. Because thats pleasure. When i feel heat, when i'm in a cold place again, my brain is telling me to seek the hot place to enjoy heat. So thats how pleasure works....

Cool huh? Enjoy your next pleasure. Tomorrow is Labour Day. So, i wish everyone, Happy Labour Day! Hapy Birthday to QianBao too! keke... its your 18th birthday...

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:


"...OnNow puts your computer in an off-but-ready mode. For informationan about..."


2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, what did u reach:


The curtains...


3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?


Spicy Relatives from Channel 8.


4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:


11.46pm

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:


11.35pm


6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:


Winamp playing, "Doing that thing you do" by the Wonders


7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:


This morning. Study, but turned out playing games at club...


8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?


wendy's


9: What are you wearing?


shirt, shorts, eyewear


10: Did you dream last night?


cannot. Too shag to dream.


11: when did you last laugh?


err... When i clicked on the mouse when Chin Shun's character in VietCong was holding a grenade launcher to the ground.


12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?


white...


14: What do you think of this quiz?


to entertain other people.


15: What is the last film you saw?


"enter the phoenix"


16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, wad would u buy first?


That depends on how rich am i. If i'm really too rich to care, then i'll buy Macdonalds and change the whole enterprise. If i'm not so rich, then i'll most prob buy a cello.


17: Tell me something about you that I don't know :


I really like to do outdoor stuff.


18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:


World Peace *keke*



19: Do you like to dance?


Yeah. I like to shake my bon bons to good tunes..



20: George Bush:


Low IQ fellow. Whats with his name? Was he a bushy fellow when he was young?



21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?


Michelle?


21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?


Michael?


22: Would you ever consider living abroad?


Yup. But i'll really miss my family and friends. I wanna go on an adventure!

watched news 10pm today. Humm... usually i watch the morning news on Channel NewsAsia. But apparently, i missed this morning due to my "too-shag-to-wake-up" reason.

Today was the procession of Hero Heng from the Nicoll Highway Cave-in "incident". Is the word procession correct? I couldn't find a better word. His "body" was sent to be burnt... ("body" because his body wasn't found from the cave-in.) He was given a trophy by his colleagues. And it labelled "Hero Heng". They presented it to his son. The wife of "Hero Heng" hugged his son and daughter and claimed out loud "Be proud of your father!"

I'm really touched by this. It made me ponder... What makes a "Hero"? Recently i've been reading "Batman" comics... Haha.. crappy and unrelevant to this incident. But i believe it must be the confidence and courage that one protrays in difficult situations. When "Hero Heng" noticed that the cave in at the Nicoll Highway construction site was about to occur, he hurried his colleagues to evacuate the situation. He knew that it was his responsibility as a Supervisor, the safety of ALL his workers. So he ran into the accident zone to seek out more workers. Foolish? When he was rushing into the danger zone, he must've had have a million thoughts in his heads.

"Who is going to take care of the family?"

"Children still young, need $$$ to continue studying..."

"I am the only sole bread winner."

"I have a family..."

"Friends...."

But his head had only one thought to be occupied with... Safety for his workers... Why? It was his responsibility at his work place. And he had to make it his own commitment to fulfill it.

This made me ponder the numerous times i have encountered myself not giving enough to my own responsibilities. As a son, student, senior, mentor, worker, follower, friend, family, volunteer and lots more. When will we learn to pick up from our responsibilities and do something about it? If all of us learn to do with our own responsibilites, only then our society will improve. If everyone expects the other person to do something about their responsibilites, then our whole system will collapse.... So i guess everyone has to exercise their own responsibilities once in a while....

Hero Heng was a normal civilian. A father. A husband. What made him a hero, was his sacrifice to his responsibility.

May God bless him and his family...

in my sadistic pleasure.... i have done this...




humm.... cannot believe that i have started killing my own friends first... humm...

tired.... overslept when i was watching 7pm show on TV. *gosh* must be really bushed... long time since i slept while watching TV.

Went to Library@Orchard today... Lotsa new comics! *love* haha... and they even got them in clear transparent protectors... Those kind that you would put around your text book in secondary school. Cool...

Then slacked at club and studied and the same time. Couldn't concentrate today... Y? Had a thought about "her" today... haha... *Sigh* going crazy le...

My current progress on my BBC module is "not bad". I think... I will begin my revision of it tomorrow...

humm.... i'm actually kindna proud of the "Kill Mac" poster.... Maybe show try and do more of these kind of parodies...

Been studying today. Did 2 chapts again! sigh... okay.. must go for 3 chapts tomorrow! jia you~ hoho.... Been listening to Nelly Furtado's new singles... "Try" and "Powerless". They are so cool! i think Nelly Furtado's muse is back! Been into listening music recently... if i can't find inspiration from the surroundings... then have to find them in music~

This message is for everyone that is mugging for your papers right now.

Thank care of your health, as the weather is kindna freaky this days.

Remember! You can study all you can, but when you are in the sick bed, you can't study...

Can this flick ever occur? Hope Quentin Tarantino will consider...

Sunday. A day where you rest. Ahhh....

Yesterday was the day that i went to meet my secondary school pals. The people had, Shulingz, Chee Sheng, Junz, rU Hong, choon Fatt, Lay Ting, Hui Feng, Geraldine, Brian, Kai Rong, YeeLing,Chee Sing, Jason... it was a lot of pple. The last time since there was such a crowd was some time ago... Haiz... Time flies. It had been like 4 years since we graduated! oh man...

The occasion was to visit Miss Grace Tan (aka Mrs Low...)'s one month old baby! Her baby, daughter, is sooo cute!!! She had lots of time to sleep when we visited her... She kept sleeping and sleeping and sleeping... *gosh* wish i was sleeping like her too...

We took our time there taking pics with our classmates and with Grace... It's great to see her so fine. She is currently in Hillgrove Secondary School teaching. And when we pondered her why Jeffrey Tan(out Secondary 3 Form Teacher. Super cute guy that have lots and lots of humour) wasn't here... Its Jeffrey's birthday yesterday! Happy birthday Jeffrey Tan!

Grace's firstborn son's name is Ivana. The daughter is Izana. I think. Very interesting names huh? After the 'outing' at Grace's shack, we left and decided to have an outing to somewhere.So i kindna suggested to watch movie... We actually decided on watching "50 First Dates". But ended not watching as it was only left with front seats at Orchard Lido for its 1 hour later shows! (Is it because its the restaurant's theme? Big?) Kindna disappointed, we ended eating at "Big-O". Its a posh restaurant at Wheelock that had really big plates and forsk and spoons! Whoa... Call me "Sua Ku"... call me ignorant. But as a self proclaimed "HDB Guy", i really don't go for these kind of eatery!!! *sigh* ended up eating with my pocket empty... *sadz* after the heavy meal, we proceeded to Selegie Centre for Pool!

Being a pool-idiot and really shag (it was 10pm when we were at the pool center!), i didn't play much. Tired, kindna thirsty and feeling abit left-out due to the pool venue, i was kindna going to fall asleep. I tried to strike up some conversation, but they played so good that they kept changing the players(Brian seem to have won the game 8 times consecutively)... When ruHong was about to leave, i took the situation to move out too. But when he didn't move much, he decided that it was too late to reach his last bus. We then waited for the rest of the gang.

waiting... shag... and thirsty....

After like say, 10 mins of waiting, we then left to "KopiTiam". As they wanted to go for some "La-Teh" session. Interesting...
we chatted at the nearby "Kopitiam" foodcourt for some drinks. The building that the "kopitiam" resided, was under renovation, so it was kindna 'romantic' to have the foodcourt filled with candles...

the gang then chatted till late 2am! whoa... although there wasn't really a topic to talk about, as most of us was shag... Then after the really *shag* talk at the kopitiam, we then took a cab home.... Really was tired, flat out.... so was kindna emotionless at that moment. Haiz...

The whoe day session with everyone was fun. But it dawn to me that i should really hang out with them more often. Otherwise, we would lose contact. And that we might forget each other.......

i'm sad.

Y? i don't know. I was at school studying the day away. Woke up kindna shaken up by my dream. Lets start with my dream, though it was kindna fuzzy. I guess it was those that you would call a "fuzzy" dream.

I was in a car with some friends. With who? I couldn't remember. Then as the car drove to a gate, (thos kind that have a guard) a guard approached us and talked some crap. Then i turn to the guard and said some Indian rubbish that i made up. Then the car was filled with laughter as the car moved on.... As the car moved, i soon noticed that beside me was an Indian! Then the dream ended...

So what did the dream meant? Reminding me not to eat too much curry? Or not to be racist? But this wasn't the end....

Then i went to school to study. I got to meet up with my course classmates (before exams). Met up with Karen(She is still so lovely....). Saw Francis. Arranged the furnitures in club. Studied with Eunice, Andrea (GrandDaughter), YouWei, KaiWei, Zeon, ChinSun & Junz(the later two didn't study....). Played games in the end. Ended the day with 1 and 1.5 chapts studied. The amt of chapts i studied wasn't much, but it was sufficient for my FIRST day of study....

While i was on my way home, i had a chill feeling.... It wasn't those kind of "ghostly" feeling. Have you watched Channel NewsAsia's commercial on "Pay It Foward"? I felt kindna pricked by it. I mean, does anyone know someone that would actually give up everything to just "pay it foward"? How many people will do that? *sigh* I have been a volunteer for almost 3 years. I admit that i ain't a constant volunteer like those that goes to visit handicap people weekly. So what kind of volunteer am i? When i leave the school (Community Service & Cultural Club also..), will i continue to do Community Service? *sigh* how much am i willing to "Pay it foward?"

"Pay It Foward? A deed a life time. "

How much can a small fry like me give? I don't know. I really don't know.

And this is one of those "feelings" that i get. Knowing nothing. Some say Ignorance is a bliss. But not knowing the part that thou shall play is very difficult. Especially for me....

How does the "Dream" and this "feeling" come together? Well, just think about it. The "dream" was trying to signal to me that I AM someone who doesn't pay attention to things around me. And this "feeling" suddenly comes to me. I firmly believe that this is a hint. A hint to do something. To Pay it Foward. But what can i do? *sigh*

Okay. So i'm now inspired. But where can all my inspiration be directed into? How far can this inspiration take me? Can it be true? How big a scale is my inspiration?

Too many questions. Too long a journey....

I've finally cutted my hair!

The barber was commenting that i have really "thick" hair. So it was kindna difficult for him to cut my hair. Well... Now that my hair is short, i think this would be the last hair cur before i go all BOTAK....

Got my Kindaichi comics from Lay Ting. Miss my comics!~ Didn't know that i would miss them so much....

Finished SWE assignment!!

Its so hot nowadays... i can't even feel myself!...

I want to cut hair. I need to study. I need to find myself love-partner.

Yup. Thats my life.

I'm too frustrated with my hair that i couldn't think well. The only thing that is making me happy is Faye Wong's song. The one that i ripped off club's computer. The song that has no proper lyrics. And the best part, i don't know the title(the mp3 title got deleted..). Anyway... the song is just cool....

Haven't been doing much for my SWE class assignment. Yesterday just finished the class meeting Role Play....

About the RolePlaying...

usually in club meeting, i always believed that i was kindna suave. But when it came to a pressurized meeting, especially with a teacher in the meeting, i was kindna 'dumb-mouthed'. Sheezz... Whats happening to me? Haiz... maybe its bcause i'm always more comfortable with my club members... *sigh* or perhaps the topics were just to dull to discuss?

Whatever~ im just kindna happy that we are over with CSW stuff. I'm getting lethergic over assignments.

About SWE....

If any of my team mates for SWE are reading this, i herby declare that i apologise for my Fucked up attitude to the work. The work is really damn tuff. And I'm really not good at SWE stuff. So i apologise to my team-mates for delaying the work.

About me...

I'm trying not to fantasize about me graduating. Cause i'm not yet. So please remind me that i only graduate ONLY after i finish my examinations. So that means i still have to study for my examinations....

Sat: been helping out at the 8th Down Syndrome... though there was some stuff that really "pissed-the-hell-out-of-me"... i tried to overcome myself. But then... somethings just couldn't be contained huh? Haiz... Just a note to all...

Responsibility isn't something that comes easy. Its something that comes by when the timing needs it. I remembered this saying very clearly, Peter Parker (a.k.a Spiderman) once had a great saying...

"With great power comes great responsibilities."

I had it once... but then i disillusioned myself by having myself deluded in my own weaknesses. I hope that other people wouldn't. Maybe that's why we are called "human". Filled with weakness and strengths. Thats why we need to work as a team right? No one works alone. No one fights alone. So i hope that the person i'm trying to get this message to get it clear...

Power doesn't come easily. I have high standards for leaders... So maybe thats why I just get pissed easily when people just topple over their weaknesses, cause it reminds me that i did. And i bore a mark for it.

During the congress event, i had lotsa of funs!! Made a new friend from Siew Yun. And had some baby time with the young Down Syndrome children. It really was fun. The children were of the age younger than 12. So they had very little language capacity. So it made me kindna difficulty to try distracting stunts on them...

I had also learnt some stuff on that day too. Peh Yee, the super-duper worker of DSA(Down Syndrome Association of Singapore) is leaving the company! Oh man... thats so sad. And i was begining to think that she is a cool gal to hang out with... A brief intro, i got to know her last year when we worked together with the DSA flag day. I think she is a fresh grad of some JC (i think), maybe Victoria JC, as they had been a school attached to DSA for a long time. I think she might be in her early 20s.... From her work, i can see that she is a very very patient person... Which is very rare in a person. Too bad we wouldn't get the chance to work any further as she is departing.... Wonder where she is going?

Had a vision of Benjamin before i slept. Benjamin is a Down Syndrome friend i made in Camp Aspiration 2001. He is a really very nice boy. I actually had a thought that if anything happens to him, how can i bear with it? I don't know. I never had a friend that departed before... Usually Down Syndrome people wouldn't last longer than 20-30 plus years... He is now 17 i think.... I hope that we have more chances to meet up more often... Heard from his mom that he hangs a picture of me and him on the wall. Isn't that nice? *gosh*

Today: Went to watch movie with Nix, Ah Bert, Wenz, Randz, Randz's sis and friend... haha!!! finally watched a movie!... not bad. It really is FUNNY. Not crappy. Goes to show that the HongKong film industry has high hopes. But i really don't understand why the show has sooo many special "guest stars". In one scene, it showed Sammi Cheng as a waitress at a restaurant. She said only 3 lines. And the 3rd line was actually a repeated line.

Not bad. The movie is a great show overall. Except during the slow parts where Eason Chan and Karen Mok tried to do some emotional "lovey-dovey" scenes. It was ssssuuupperrrr draggy for the show. The rest was fine. Anyway, there was a funny part which Nix asked me, "How come Stephen Fung is so cool in the show ah?"

Well... maybe its because its his film, "Enter the Phoenix" by director Stephen Fung. And i give it 4.5 over 5!

I'm now kindna "high". Maybe its because of the breakfast.(Refer to above post).

My 2nd Bro has finally finished his Final Year project! hoho.... *gRinz* This means there might be more time for me to be on the computer! keke :p He is currently sleeping like a dead pig. This proves that no human can ever tolerate more than 24 hours of 'non-sleep'. All will fall to the evil of the "sandman".

Watched "Survivor" just now. Its so cool... Pardon me. Actually i'm ain't a big fan of "Survivor". Just that the ending part of the "Survivor" is so interesting... watching the players lose their alliances and forced to risk their friendship... hoho... pure REALITY.... this episode showed "Busta" Rob trying to win favours by actually missing out on his video made by his family in exchange of letters for everyone from their homes in the tribe. Its soo.... strategical... If you don't know what Survivor is all about... you must have been living in a cave for the past 2 years. If you are just too lazy to find out whats its about... Survivor is ALL about Backstabbing, Alliances and Facades. *gosh* something that is disgusted is actually so well-liked by people of the world watching the show....

Back to reality... After my BBC lab "test" today, i was actually kindna relieved and tired. Especially from all the excitment of the "test" itself. I was on my way walking to club by myself. Then i saw C and her classmates in the middle of now-where. Apparently discussing about somethings... Being an excited little chap, i was really shocked to see the class (around 20 pple) with C in them. I kindna freaked out... As i tried to calm myself down, i moved towards the nearby water cooler for a drink. (trying to make myself look natural... ) Then C came up to me. And touched me! Argh!!!! About the "touching" part, she actually gave me a pat on my hands like a "friendly" kind... and she said, "why are your hands so cold?".

I was shocked... Not that gals never touched me before. I was like an idol man... everyone wanted a piece of me. Neither is this the first time she touched me too. But i felt really "emotional" when she touched me. Its not sexually (Lisar... i think you must be thinking like this right? Sorry i disappointed you...) nor was it those kind of BGR thingy. I don't know...

During that interval of 0.005 secs, i answered C "i was in lab... of course cold ah... So where are you and your friends going?"

then the rest are not important. As we parted our ways, i felt kindna funny. I think maybe during that brief pat on my hands made me different.... humm... i don't know. Maybe when i sorted this thought out, i'll maybe share...

"How can we ever measure Love?"
"You can... by the size of the hole that it left behind"

-BluePrint season 2: Princess Moon

"Roars!!!!"

yeah. Look at the bloody time. (The term "bloody" is not sexist. Don't blame me.) It freaking early. Why!!!!??? My Dad actually bought breakfast for me! Mee Pok(Fishball noodles) from somewhere. Apparently he didn't want the fishball noodles to go hard and cold by the time i woke up. So....... he woke me up early. I have no idea what to tell my Dad. My lesson starts at 2pm!

Actually he is really very good to get me breakfast so early. Usually its the plain old bread and peanut butter~ Thanks Dad. The best Dad award goes to you! You never fail to amaze me....

Can someone switch the temperature down? It freaking HOT nowadays. It so hot that when i hang out infront of the computer, i'm sweating like a pig.... oh man.... Must try and control my sweat glands through will power. Heard that some Taiwan artistes are able to do so...

Went to Suntec City yesterday. It was fun. Since the weather was so freaking hot, its good to cool i somewhere which is cooling. Apparently the DSA(Down Syndrom Association of Singapore) wanted to brief us (SP student volunteers) on our task this Saturday. But it turns out that the task was quite mundane. So i think it should be quite simple for us. NO sweat !

After the light briefing, and the light dinner with Jing Ying, Xue Feng, Hanqi and Zeon. Me and Zeon met up with SnoZ. By the way, did i mention that Jing Ying and Xue Feng was amazed that me and Zeon are such "weird" seniors? By should they see the other 'seniors'(refering to the year 3s). haha....

As was kindna bored, i got Snoz and Zeon to accompany me to have a light walk around the area. Then a very interesting topic comes about, "Romancing Singapore".

In the country where there are non-stop of campaigns, like the "Courtesy campaign", "healthy campaign", "2.1 baby campagin", "stand-behind-the-line-at-MRT campaign", "SARS campaign", it looks like the country just has lots of $$$$$ to spend on campaigns. I don't blame the government. Why? Actually they got lots of money to spend since they wanted the consumers to "also" pay for the fees of "extra" security at MRT and Bus interchanges. Not to mention pay the GST 5%. But most prob, i have listed down some reasons why Singapore needs to be romanced...

top 5 reasons why Singapore needs to be romanced:

1. People are in a rush. When they just got to know each other, they ask if the other party is interested to get a HDB apartment.
2. Guys don't buy flowers for girls except on Mother's day and Valentine's day. If you like the girl, give her flowers everyday.
3. Girls are becoming guys. er... I mean butch.
4. More guys are romancing too. With other guys.
5. Singapore couples go to Macdonalds.

Hoho... yup. These are the reasons i think Singapore needs to be romanced. Maybe the government needs to shut down on Macdonalds.... *gRinz*

So should the government step in on this? I think the answer should be "No". This is more of a cultural thingy in Singapore. People can't change by the government's intervension. You couldn't get LKY to talk to every budding couple to "advise" them into romancing. I think it should come nature. Government should just "support" us quietly. Not by just bringing up another crappy campaign. It a huge waste of time.

How to "support" us quietly? Maybe they could show more love shows on TV and on cinemas. What ever happened to "Chemistry"? Show more TV programs on how to be romantic. Have "Romeo and Juliet" shown often on TV. "Sleepless in Seatle" or maybe even "When Harry met Sally". Maybe we just don't know how to romance. So teach us....

Don't waste the people's $$$$ on useless campaigns.

Watched a documentry last night. Its called "Faces and Places". It introduced the famous historical landmarks of Singapore. It featured "C.H.I.J.M.E.S", Victoria theatre and the Waterloo Police building. Cool show. It actually shows that in the past, CHIJ had girls! *sarcastic laughs*. It also made me realise CHIJ meant Church of the Holy Infant Jesus.

*Dang* My bro was using the com again last night. humm.... can he ever complete his FYP by the time he graduate? hope he does...

Did anyone watched "Heartlanders"? I'm begining to think there is hope for English Drama. (recalls famous "Masters of the Seas" quote --->"Crush! Crush! Crush them all like cockroaches" ) Any by the way, the 'attitude' gal, Tiffany Yeo is having her Iternship there! Remembere to watch the credits and look for "Internship"!

I have finally completed my keyboard lessons! (not the computer keyboard, its the musical keyboard.) Yesh! After 6-7 months of gruelling practice. I have done it. Sigh.... gonna miss Janice. (the keyboard teacher). She was kindna hoping for me to continue my lessons. But too bad, i got the NS to serve.

Called Lay Ting yesterday. She is at home! Just a brief intro, she is currently a Ngee Ann Poly Accountancy gal in her final year of study. She is havingher Internship at an Accountant firm and she is being unfairly underpaid. Why? She works 9am-8pm from Mon to Fri. Sad man... And she has a pay of $600! i feel really kindna sad for her. Haiz.... Anyway, why am i intro-ing her so much? Actually she has my complete set of "Kindichai" comics. Yeah... "Kindichai". The comic hero that goes... "In my Grandfather's name... i will solve this case...." yeah. That one. He is cool okay.... I left it with her since we graduated from Secondary school. So thats like... a few years? haha... farny how time flies. well.... i hope that maybe before i leave for my "small island", i can get to meet some of my Secondary school pals like Lay Ting to talk cock and spend some time. Cause i don't get to meet them often....

Today got Technopreneurship test!!! *sigh* i don't really know what to study.. but whatever.... Eunice thinks that its a test where we get to listen to "Techno"... haha....

missed Monday's blog entry, due to brother's late night of project working.

Monday:

Kindna woke up with a big smile. I found my Manuscript of "Romeo & Juliet" (Outram Sec remix!). It has my handwriting on it!! haha... remember the times when i slogged it out with Kunal, Joan, GuoWei, Shao.... Trying to some out witht the script. Although i was the one that suggested it, i made it on my own accord to write the script myself. Miss Grace(a.k.a the
"now" Mrs Low... Thanks for being our Literature teacher!). They gave me lotsa of ideas. So the show was really corny. The REALLY corny kind, where after you watch finish, u really wanna wack the script-writer. ITS THAT BAD.

Although during the process of the script-development, there was lotsa and lotsa of disagreements (cause most of the time, i was hogging the show... haha). I did the ultimate sacrifice. Being Juliet. Shao, if you are reading this, don't bash me up... But i really need to thank you for being Romeo...... Many people helped out. Especially Kunal and Joan. They were very enthusiatic in the idea of the show.

Well... after reading the manuscript, i was kindna having butterflies in the stomach. Its like discovering a part of me all over. This script really holds memoriesof my days in Scondary School. So, i wanna say "Thank you" to ALL my classmates during my time. They have made my school days so sad and fun at the same time that i am beyond words to describe it. I'm sure everyone has such a feeling before too. Well... it sure was fun! And its the future that we can stretch our heads to, and the past to turn our heads to.

Having such a great morning was good. But eventually things didn't turn out great in the evening. SOMETHING happened. Made me feel kindna rotten inside. I just blundered everything. *Shucks* i'm just does kind of person to cause trouble. A really nast misunderstanding happened to my classmates in Poly. Haiz. All of us were about to graduate. Couldn't we just be happy... haiz. Don't really wanna say anymore things abt the incident here... refer to Kel's blog for reference. It really sucks. Made me lose my sleep.

The 2 most valuable lesson i learnt is not to take friends for granted and that information is REALLY important.

Peace out...

Today:

Woke up really kindna tired. I think i'm going to be sick again. *schucks*

sickness alwasy bugs me when i'm having exams! Must push it away! I got to know that the song was "There is None like You". This is a really great song. Makes me feel cheesy all over.

Need to jog. exactly 7 more days to my NAPFA. i don't think i can pass it. *Heck* with it. I just wanna try my best.

Read Straits Times today. (I receive the daily Strait Times Newspaper a day late... Why? i'm a cheapsteak. So go figure...) The "Home" section, which is was one of the few sections that i read showed a very interesting statistics.

Should NKF slow down its fund-raising efforts?

Yes. 1,775
No. 10,026
Don't care. 92

Could NKF set a fund raising target every year rather than try and amass as much money as possible?

Yes. 1,836
No. 9,968
Don't care. 90

why wasn't i in the voting? *sigh* i really think the voting was rigged. Like the Taiwan's... Can there be a re-count? How about getting an international investigator to investigate NKF's internals?

Is there an organisation there is going aganist NKF's crazy donation drives? I feel like joining one. I need to be in the 1,775 statistics!

YuLian didn't make it into her desired Nursing course @ Nanyang Polytechnic. Don't be so sad! You can always find more places where you can pursue your aspiration...

Happy Easter! This is the day where Jesus rose from his dead. It symbolises not only his victory over death, but also our hopes of rising like him....

yeah... notice that recent i've been talking alot about Jesus and stuff... must be the Good Friday and the "Passion of Christ" effect.

Just wanna make something very clear to the public.

NOTE: The Easter Bunny, eggs and chocolate eggs are not related to Jesus rising from the dead....

yeah... recently Wenz was asking me. then i soon found out that quite a number of people thought that they were related... So what hapened then? Was it the Easter Bunny that saved Jesus? Actually nope... Sorry to all the kiddy lovers. But the Easter Bunny, like Santa Claus are all fictional. Except Santa Claus was based on someone that really did something. Who? St. Nicholas. yup. St. Nicholas did gave $$$ to the poor when they were sleeping on Dec 25. Cool huh? But i don't think anyone dressed up as a bunny to hide Eggs.... So i deduce that its just a advertising gimicks...

Talking about gimicks. There was the NKF show by MediaCorp. Yup. The annual carnival show where all the mediaCorp Artistes and Oversea Artistes will attempt really dangerous stunts to impress the viewers to dial the REALLY expensive phone call. Or better still SMS them. If the dangerous stunts don't woo the audience to dial, the impressive prizes for dialing & SMS can do that. The Condominiums, Cash, Visa cards & cars... Whao... No wonder so many people called in.

Now, the show has been on for some time. Since maybe when i was in Secondary school. It started off with Artistes doing cute stuff... like acrobatic stunts and juggling. Now the stunts that i see in the show are the "Walk-up-samurai-swords-ladder" and the "Look!-I'm-in-a-box-filled-with-bees" or maybe the "shoot-me-in-the-back-with-traditional-pipe-missile". Really. This is so crappy. I was touched by the fact that they really fill themselves with guts to do sooo many things for the kidney patients. But i have this dying question to ask,

"How much does the money gets to benefit all the patients?"

Did u happen to pass by Orchard on Sat Apr 10? I happen to be. (refer to previous blog) I noticed that they got (young) people to hand out phamplets about the NKF show. The phamplet was coloured and had the charity numbers splashed out quite big. Why the phamplet? Doesn't people know that there is a charity show going on? Why waste MORE resource?

Viewship. Yup. Thats the one. Because of the competitive market, i'm not surprised what Mediacorp will do to seize every chance to exploit its shows. I will not be surprised that MediaCorp will soon show an Ad saying "Thank you. For making MediaCorp you Favourite channel. -then shows the statistics showing on NKF show has wooed THIS AMT of people during its timeslot. " It makes me sick to the guts that they do such stuff just to SHOW OFF. haiz....

This morning during "I Guess Guess Guess" by Jacky Wu said that children bornt of the 80s are hungry to "fight for something". well.... i think this statement is right.

So thats the reason why i boycott NKF. It really makes me sick. So rich but yet so poor. Poor in humility. Can it ever learn the true form of compassion? Its not by doing gimmicks again and again. Its by doing the RIGHT things. Serving the right people. Maybe NKF has a reason for being such an F*** up enterprise. maybe. But till now, i think it sucks BIG time. So don't ask me to donate $$$ to NKF. I despite it.

i have succeed!! haha! I have finally succeeded in a 24hour long fasting. Why? Well... Yesterday was Good Friday. I was supposed to go for fasting and abstinence.

Fasting? It means have one full meal and one 1/2 a meal.

Abstinence? Meaning no Meat... (Eggs and fishes not counted as meat).

Well..... Yesterday i wanted to challenge myself. How? By trying not to eat any physical item for a day. hoho.... It sure was difficult, especially the surrounding evironment kept popping out food infront of me. Imagine... 24 hours of no food. Only water. Well... i completed my fasting, and i'm really kindna proud of myself as this is the first time i had done such a complete fasting. hoho... usually i would do the fasting as i mentioned above.... So please kindna forgive yesterday if i was in a blur blur stage.

How did i spend the entire day? I went for a ONE day chiong LAN-game session with ah bert, kaiwei, zhicheng and chin sun. Sure was tiring. And i couldn't concentrate most of the time because of the lack of food... super shag man. The LAN game of the day was "Wacraft 3: Frozen Throne". It was fun playing... But its really very sianz to wait for a PC. Actually it was only yesterday that i found out that so many in Singapore are actually hooked up to playing LAN... Whao... its crazy...

well... today was nothing much. It was basically camp song practice. FO meetings. Then end @ 4pm. By that time, there were a few groups hanging out at different parts of the island. I was kindna tired. Especially after yesterday's fasting. It made me feel very "light". I think maybe i was enlighted for the day... haha...

i decided to go to Orchard and wander around there. It was nice to be "part of a crowd". Feels very akward, but in place. Everyone seems to be busy with something. But i'm just loitering there aimlessly. *Gosh* and i don't feel weird at all... well... overall... i felt that the walk was kindna healthy.... (maybe lost a few kg) as i walked from Wisma to Plaza Singapura. humm... i really feel kindna monotone... very plain. is that good or bad? Haiz...

haiz.. been out of the past 3 days. Been busy for the presentation for technoprenuership. Althought there were many F***ed ups during the course of doing it... And many bitching and other stuff... But at least... we finished it... haha!!! Made it... I think the Lecturer was kindna disappointed that our group did moderate... haha... since our last presentation was kindna superr suckkyyy..

After the whole presentation... i was shagged out... REALLY shag. I went to help out with Audio for the President's Soccer Challenge.... SP vs ITE... Eventually, afer a tiring no goal match. SP won by a penalty goal. I felt that the match was really sucky... Ain't nothing compared to those on TV. The "Oscars" performances by the soccer players... imagine = "Soccer player A kicks the ball, Soccer player B rolls on the floor and screams in agony... Soccer Player A gets a penalty shoot-out or yellow card!" Too bad there ain't much. Or there isn't much action like the players argues with the referee. Then the referee shows a red card in his face... kuku leh...

But overall... i think a 'live' match is always better than those on TV. If someone asks me to go to those 'live' matches... might consider going... Its quite fun in overall!

Today was too tired. I think i overclocked myself yesterday that i am too tired today to concentrate... haiz... Anyway... something happened just now that i think it was worth sharing in this blog...

As i was waking into my bathroom for my nightly "brushing of teeth" ritual. I reached for my toothbrush. Suddenly! A young cockroach flash infront of me and waved himself at the mirror. I was shocked.

"Ta Ma De!" i thought. Not wanting to shout to wake my family members up.

I took a roll of newspaper and rolled it into my hands. Wanting to wack the hell out of the bug. Really. I hate bugs that go at top speed. They are so gross. And especially when they are cockcroaches. I freaking hate cockroaches in my household. What the F***. i think they have no use in this world lor.. Bees pollinate... Ants are good workers... Butterflies beauty the world. What does cockroaches do? Slack and eat garbage. And they are not even good looking!! Argh!!!... gross out man...

Can't a MAN hate cockroaches? I hate them like nobody's business. I hate them so much that i feel repulsed to even kill them. Waste my effort. Wats the use of freaking cockroahes? Are they going to be the future owners of our polluted world? Haiz... Watever.

By the time i wanted to wack the hell out of the cockroach... it fled to now-where. Oh man... my toliet needs to get cleaned up... I'm just too freaked out by the speeding cockroach that i quickly performed my ritual and left the toliet. Feeling that this event was so lame..... i thought that i should share it with you all...

The moral of the story? Keep ur toliet clean.

You never know whats in the toliet...

okay.. i'm obessed with black and white pictures...

But right now... i'm feeling kindna gothic...




i call this..... Death of a Banana...

humm.. did some research on my name, Eustace.

Found this. And perhaps a more accurate one. He also has a profile!!!

Thats so cool...

Summary of it all is that my patron... cause i'm now using his name for my Confirmation.(So this is my Confirmation name..) He is a cool guy that sacrificed everything for his own beliefs. He is also a patron for firefighters! cool... check out your own name... maybe your patron is someone great too...

overall. I think this website is the most established.

whao.... i'm a horny bastard...

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

humm... yesterday went a series of meeting. yeah. Really. Lotsa meetings. 3 meetings. Then i even had a FO sing-a-long session. Very shag man. Then Jiemin and Nix came by. Then it was dinner at Clementi along with KTV at PartyWorld. Sang till the our voices became hoarse... We were ALL very tired. There were Ah Ze, Tingz, JieMin, Wenz, ah Bert, Yu Xiong, Nix, me, Selina, Helen, Chuen Ming, Zeon, Snoz, Jin Yan, Bunz & rON. What a large crowd... and we then did a 3hour long of David Tao, Jay Chou, S.H.E and some really unknown personalities concert... very tired in the end... Really very tired....

I realised that the songs that we sang were all very 'Ji Mor'... super sianz.. but then what the 'heck'! its the company of friends that was the occasion we were celebrating about.....

Yup... by the way... I have received the Enlistment 'BOMB' letter le! I'm leaving Singapore for the little island on June 8!!! hoho....

participated as a Backstage crew in (Singapore Polytechnic Chinese Orchestra) SPCO's 8th Annual Concert., 4 Seasons.

The concert consisted of Four very different that of music that had the names of the four seasons, in the respective order of, Spring, Autumn, Summer then Winter. Particpating in this event, has made me realise that it was brief interval that i performed on stage with them too... I remembered that i trained like a mad man... And i only had some special songs to attend to. But i don't really think i did very well at them... haiz... sad man...

I think this year's CO has improved tremendously. Really. The style and the songs they played showed that the group has matured into a true form of entity. What am i talking about? Well... basically i'm trying to say that they have improved to a stage that i have no idea how to describe it. Why? As i have never participated in such glory. Yup...

Saw lotsa 'old' friends on stage. Bernard (currently an army guy, super lame crappy guy), Xiu Peng(Yang Qin comrade, we use to play the Yang Qin with lotsa mental communication...), Evelyn (serious gal... she was really tensed for the concert...relax ah...), MuFeng (crappy guy... ), Ying Qin, WeiJie, Ah Mok, Da Jie, many more... maybe i forgot the names le.. but i can recall their faces... How much i envy them.... Them as in refering to the people performing. Some of the people i mentioned earlier were backstage crew.... How i envy them!!! Argh!~ Sigh. Too bad... i had chosen something else.

Recalling abt it.. it was lame. SPCO had asked me to be their Logistics I.C and CSCC asked me to their Cultural Secretary. This was in my Year 2. At that time, i wanted both of the worlds to be mine. (I'm a greedy person.) But i know that a man cannot have privileges. So being a F***ed person, i chose my present state. (That is CSCC ah...) I never regretted it. But just so much that i envy Xiu Peng. She actually got to do her solo piece! Oh man... if i was still in SPCO, i would most prob being doing a piece myself! (me talking big here....)

Ahh... tmd... Anyway, with my current situation of me condemning Kreta Ayer CC's CO. I think the chance for me to perform is very slim. But whatever, i hope that maybe somethings will work themselves out... jiayou bah Banana!!!!

RUSHED to watch "Passion of The Christ". Oh my goodness. Don't watch if you are weak-hearted. Really. Oh man.. really very bloody. If you wanna watch the show, skip the next paragaraph. I don't wanna be a spoiler.






There was this scene that showed Jesus being tied to a rock. according to those times, the people were tied to a rock where they were flanked and wacked like hell by soldiers. They whipped Jesus 30+ times with a cane on his back. Try and imagine him barebodied and whipped like no body's business. The soldiers ran a short distance, then "whacked!" on his back. 'Ouch...' After that scene. The soldiers were shag. Tired. And Jesus was filled with pain. Then the soldiers took a whip with claws. yeah... Its a whip. Then the edges of the whip lines have claws. Claws! As of an eagle's claws. Then, one of the soldier used his whip and tried it on a wooden table. Chucks of the table flew!!! Oh man... i was like sianz man... Super Sianz! Then the soldiers went "flip!" "Flop!" on Jesus. oh man.... Blood was flying ALL around... Then at the 4-5 whacking, one of the soldiers's whip got stuck in Jesus' rib. With a quick jerk, blood came flying out of his ribs and his ribcage was exposed!!!! oh man... i was like... wat the hell... Then the whipping came out to about 30+. By that time, some of the audience left. Actually two left(i think). The blood covered Jesus like it was his clothings. His scars were his clothes' outlines. Super bloody. Super real. I think i almost lost my dinner there. Yup... And the Director(none other than Mel Gibson), focused quite a lot on the whip lash. This scene is too much man... Better close your eyes at this scene.








Yup. Most of the scenes are quite realistic. So be quite prepared..... Bring like some tissue just in case you get too emotional or getting kindna fluenza. Haiz.... so as an overall. I wanna say that the story is still the FABULOUS. As this is the story that was retold throughout the countless ages. Nobody will get bored. So no matter what kind of religion you are in, you can really consider watching it. It will not only improve your Latin(the ENTIRE show ws in Latin), but also make you find your own true form of inspiration. Yeah... it deserves its 5 stars.... 5/5 movie!!!

i was too shag to type a single word yesterday... Went to help out with Zeon and KaiWei on thei lightings. Tiring!!! tmd... then went to Sim Lim SQ with TianAi and Junz. More tiring as TianAi didn't really wanna tell me what she wants to do... sigh... whatever lah...

Anyway, HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S day! well... i really think this day is really crappy. how did it come about anyway? Did some guy called April fooled everyone? So to commerate this loser they named this day as him? Haiz... actually i think the real origin must be in the late European times. The Kind was kindna "sianz" man... He needed something to make the people of his Kingdom to e happy. Otherwise his people would think, "whoa.. sianz man... what a frealing loser King we got... let's go to another Kingdom". So to build up his popularity, he set up many stages known as "Kingdom's Idol". Then the respond was resounding. People all over his Kingdom participated. Those that think that they are popular that is... Then this young gentlemen came on, as it was his turn...

"I'm currently studying at U.K's top college right now.... Its kindna odd why i chose to audition in the first place.Well.... because my major is cleric-ism. Which is fully not related to music, but i really like music. And i wanna make music my living..." as he said this... the audience roared.

"You can start now.." said the King.

"She bangs! She bangs!" and as the gentlemen struts his stuff. The audience roared with excitement!

"I know him! Its HIM! The legendary white skinny knight that will save us from bordedom!" as excailmed by one of the crowd.

The King was shocked by the "legendary white skinny knight's" stunt. And the King soon decided to crowd him the Kingdom's Idol.

When the "lengendary white skinny knight" received the title, he said "actually i didn't have any proffesional training..."

And that day was known as April Fool's Day. For it is a day that any fool's dream can come true.